I am afaid of a lot of things. It's not easy to admit, but heck...I am willing to be vulnerable at this time in my life.
I am raw--
1. I am afraid of meeting the family of the girls.
2. I am afraid that they are going to be terrified of leaving with a stranger.
3. I am afraid that I won't be able to get their "blackness".
4. I hope that I can learn to do their hair.
5. I am afraid of their fear.
6. I am a little afraid of raising girls.
7. I am afraid that medical issues could come up.
Things I think I know that I am using to try to fight the fear--
1. God is with me.
2. I have a wonderful supportive husband
3. I have great boys who are kind and helpful.
4. I have friends who are waiting on the sidelines to help.
5. I think that I can learn to do hair---
6. I know some sweet girls who are excited for our girls to come.
7. In my head I know that any one of us could have medical issues.
8. I know others who have done this exact thing and they are making
it.
I think I can...I think I can......
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Deb,
I think I understand why you are afraid, but there isn't one doubt in my mind that you can do this. You will do it; with grace and humor and mistakes. You will do it with Tom, Ben and Abel. You will do it with me and Danielle and Cheryl and Dana and many, many others. You will do it because you are entirely capable; far more than you probably give yourself credit for.
I may be on the sidelines, but I'm jumping up and down saying, "Put me in, coach! Put me in!"
I love you much,
Aunty Arleta
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